Unbearable Suffering: My Fight With the Enigmatic Suffering of Cluster Headaches
It was a gloomy weekday in the morning in the autumn of 2016. I worked as a educator, trying to settle a new class, when a sharp sensation erupted behind my right eye. Then came rapid shocks, reminiscent of lightning bolts. As each class came and went, the discomfort eased and then returned with greater intensity. Four times that day I handed over a colleague with activities and ran to the staff bathroom to soak my face with cool water. I tried ibuprofen, but the pain remained unrelenting.
The attacks appeared repeatedly that fall, and once more in the spring, soon forming an annual pattern. September and October were the most severe, then the late winter. I could predict the routine: aura in the morning, early twinges on the commute, full-on pain in the classroom by mid-morning. In 2019, a GP eventually referred me to a neurologist and I was diagnosed with cluster headache disorder.
Cluster headaches often begin with intense pain around a single eye that persists for several hours.
Approximately 1 in 1000 individuals are affected by the disorder, and males are more frequently affected. Cluster headaches typically begin with sudden, excruciating pain around one eye that reaches its peak within a short time and continues for as long as three hours. Episodes come in clusters, every day or multiple times a day, and are associated with tearing eyes, drooping eyelids or facial sweating. I have an episodic type, which arrives in periodic bouts; some patients have continuous attacks, characterized by the absence of extended symptom-free periods.
What unites sufferers is the severity. One research paper rated the pain at 9.7 10, more severe than broken bones or other conditions. A separate found 64% of cluster patients reported thoughts of self-harm amid attacks; the number dropped to 4% when they were not in pain.
One patient, in her seventies, a chronic sufferer from Wales, isn't surprised. Her attacks started when she was a toddler. “I would hurl myself on the ground and hit my head. That was attributed to being spoiled,” she says. Her symptoms deteriorated through her youth. Drinking in her teens, like several triggers, made things more intense. After having alcohol at her school leaving party, she recalls barely being able to see on the bus home.
Her relatives often mistook her attacks as intoxicated episodes. Support eventually came from her father and then from her partner, Rod. “I was very lucky to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs found office work after relocating, but often concealed her illness. She was fired from one job, partly due to time off during episodes. Her definitive identification came in the early 2000s at a national hospital.
Still, the inability to organize life around unpredictable attacks took its effect. She especially hated being unable to plan outings, being seen as unreliable as a colleague, and even having to be cared for by her family during the paralysis caused by the worst episodes. “It steals from you of the small freedoms we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She remembers obtaining tickets for a significant concert, only to have an episode inside a facility.
Headaches have been documented throughout the ages. “The earliest account of headache originates from the Mesopotamians in antiquity,” write authors in a book on the topic. They attributed the disease to an malevolent entity who attacked his sufferers' heads.
Historical healing texts propose bizarre remedies for what some experts would describe as a headache disorder. In the medieval times, severe headache was identified as a distinct condition, with treatments including bloodletting to other, more folk cures.
It was a Dutch physician who provided the initial comprehensive account of a cluster headache. In his medical observations, he describes a patient “afflicted with a very intense headache occurring and disappearing daily at fixed hours”.
Cluster headaches were only officially classified by global headache societies in 1988. From the 1960s to the late 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a issue with a key blood vessel which supplies blood to the brain. Leading experts in treating the disorder note this.
In 1998, researchers published the findings of a study for which they had induced cluster headaches in patients and monitored the episodes in a imaging machine. The results, published in a major journal, showed activation of the hypothalamus, which is in charge for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in pain, and a deactivation when they recovered.
Despite such advances, identification remains delayed. Jamie Charteris's attacks started in the 1980s and felt like “a balloon being blown up behind my one eye”. Doctors thought he had a sinus issue; he had four operations before finally being correctly identified in recently, after a doctor researched his symptoms.
Specialists say wait times in diagnosing and treatment occur because patients are rarely seen mid-attack. “You're exhausted and low, but not in agony,” one says. He works by eliminating other common head pain conditions, such as migraine, before diagnosing cluster headaches. A thorough patient history is essential: on which side do symptoms appear? For how long? What time of year? Are there triggers, such as alcohol? Specific characteristics such as tearing, drooping eyelids and stuffy nose help confirm cluster headaches. Once identified, patients may be referred to specialist clinics. But many first go to emergency rooms or are given inadequate therapies.
A charity trustee, 78, has suffered from the condition for most of her life, although she hasn't had an attack since 2016. When she was in her 20s, she had her teeth extracted because dentists misinterpreted her pain. She thinks the dental profession still need much more awareness. When a sufferer sought help from a support group, it was Chapman who replied. I remember calling a support line during an bout in early 2021; a reassuring advisor talked them through oxygen therapy and medication until the episode eased.
Official guidance on treatment recommend that sufferers are offered high-dose oxygen therapy and/or a anti-migraine drug administered by nasal spray. No oral painkillers or opioids should be used. Preventive choices include verapamil, which apparently helps manage the attacks of some individuals.
But consultant neurologists argue the official guidelines need revising to reflect a clearer treatment process and help GPs avoid incorrect prescriptions. For periodic patients, the treatment window is critical: “The duration of the bout determines the treatment.” Short bouts with occasional episodes are managed with acute therapy alone. Longer or more intense periods require preventives such as verapamil, sometimes paired with steroids. Many patients also receive a nerve block injection during a bout – an procedure into the area of the head where the discomfort is that decreases nerve signals.
The official guidelines need updating to reflect a